A journey to find myself.

Reviving my blog- Attempt #123456

I feel like I've had this dream of writing a blog ever since I was a kid but never had the courage or tenacity that lasted long enough to actually make me pursue it. Does anyone ever felt just plain average? Like, you have passion, interests, desires but never enough to fuel yourself to start something? Well, that's basically my entire life. My list of interests throughout my adolescent years include:

1. Photography (tumblr days were a huge contributor to this)

At one point I actually wanted to become a photographer and even persuaded my parents to get me a DSLR just so I could take pointless photos of flowers and blue skies.

2. Baking 

Yes, I know everyone can bake but I really loved baking. My bolder experiments include rainbow cupcakes, cream puffs, macarons, a huge birthday cake and other semi successful bakes.

3. Dancing

This, I'm not so sure of. I don't think I'm naturally talented but I've been dancing for school concerts since primary school so maybe the constant repetition of practices gave me a better foundation of dance skills than most. 

4. Content creation

I never knew this could be something you learn in uni and be paid for it at work. I love brainstorming ideas, carrying out creative work, designing and just anything that requires a sense of creativity. 

5. Writing

This one hits home for sure. When I was 13, I wrote pages and pages of stories similar to those pre-teen books you'd find in bookstores. I get so excited anytime we had to write creative essays at school. One of my proudest moment was when a teacher asked if she could read my essay to the class because it was the best! 

6. Fashion

I LOVE fashion. Not the act of buying an insane amount of clothing items but actually styling them. Watching rom-coms like Confessions of a shopaholic, The Devil wears Prada, and the whole fashion related content on youtube basically fuelled a mini stylist in me.

These are just some of the more specific interests I have but I basically have an interest in every section of the world, but none I could stick to because I know I'm just not good enough in any. I'm just an average girl probably with an identity crisis as I just have too many interests. I guess this trait of mine contributed to my quarter life crisis of not knowing what I want to do with my life. 

I guess this blog will help me compartmentalise my thoughts into words so I can finally start to understand myself.